|All pictures by Kari Vuorio|
When everyone else are wetting on gym, trying to quit smoking or having a month without drinking, I am doing a personal challenge with Tina Leaf and living without scale and living like I don´t give a damn about my weight for a while. I was thinking the pictures which I took with Kari would be good with the post because this is me when I was size 14 and when I was biggest that I have ever been. And yet don´t feel that ugly or fat like I thought I would. Since last year I drop one size because I wasn´t eating healthy, bulimia is still part of my life and I went and went eating too much all the time. It made me felt tired and when my favorite clothes didn´t fit anymore I decided to really take full charge change with my eating diet and started eating more normally. It really wasn´t that hard, I just didn´t that much crap (but I still eat it like once a week) and had like normal exercise. I don´t have, unfortunately any pictures to show how I have changed, but basically all the buffyness has gone and now I am just focusing to keep this weight and how I am thinking.
Loving yourself doesn´t start when the year start, month start, week or even day start. It starts the moment you realize you are worth for something else than feeling sorry for yourself. And that is not being selfish, it is how you are supposed to live and think. You can give so much more for yourself and others when you do that. Start is always the hardest, but actually it goes like.. when you do like yourself, you are wondering what you have been thinking before? Everyone has parts of their body they don´t like, everyone has difficulties with their skin or hair or weight. But even when your body changes, you are still you and only way that you change, is your heart growing. There is nobody else like you.