How fast this year goes! Every morning when I wake up I realize, other day just passed (I never think that when I go to sleep). My summer started with good company, Isa and Kari came to town, we took few pictures for Lumissa´s jewelry, drank very good wine and had a blast. I wanted to be Wednesday, it was kinda weird to dress up to take pictures, but Kari is so good photographer that I wanted few pictures for myself too.
Couple of weeks ago I went to Helsinki to do Alternative bloggers meeting, see my friends and took some pictures for FAM. Vivica started to do my new leg tattoo, it will be so rad! Tricky trips, here I come again!
I have been swollen by a big depression which seem to be bigger than the ocean at the moment. I don´t even remember the last time I felt like this. Nothing seems not to interest me anymore. I do stuff because I still want to keep moving and try to live normally as possible. Weeks and weeks only crying and selfhate, I am starting to hate this part of my illness. Normally I am full of energy and keep going until I am too tired to do stuff and be exited. I have so many things to do and now I feel I am going be even more behind my schedule. Sigh...
Last months I have been busy with my photographing stuff, there is coming some good stuff, all tough I don´t have the power for photoshopping... how irritating. Would you like me to blog more about my photographing pictures on my other blog or here? I have multiple videoideas too but don´t have strength for that either, gosh... And even today is awesome video shooting day, typical. So this became some complain post, oh well haha.
Few things keep me smiling though. I am so in love with Jani again that I didn´t know this kind of love is in the world. I don´t know what I would do without his support. And because my growing self confidence, my closet is becoming more and more like me. My daily clothes and jewelry are those kind of things that you just need to have. I used my Evil cunt hat all winter, it reminds me that even I am not that kind at times. And it has pentagram on it, font is kinda cool too. Cat shirt will be one the most used too, it is so warm and cumfy. Crazy catlady for ever!
Now it is time for my latest addiction, Star Wars comics! Have you seen the newest trailer btw? I got so exited about it that I wanted to do Star Wars marathon yesterday with Jani and now I am reading all the things that happen after the 6th movie.
Last past few weeks has gone by so fast. I have been doing photoshoots every week in Pori trough Helsinki, Vantaa, Kerava, Espoo and Tampere. Being a photographer and a model together sure takes time. This week will be almost only doing photoshopping for magazine pictures and I have many projects for my little FAM page. So big things coming up.. I am glad that Spring is here and I am getting so much strength from the sun that is shining almost every day. Last week was pretty awesome with all the northern lights on the sky, solar eclipse and super moon and Spring equinox. Wow, that is a lot coolness in one! Beside all of that I have seen so many friends, been happier than I have been in 6 months, found myself a little bit more and just.. been happy with all of the things around me. Positive energy in other persons can really be the thing that change you from the inside. This year really seem to be the changing year for me and I can´t wait what comes next!
All this post pictures was taken by lovely Ravenoir. I even got the awesome Vixxsin shirt from her! It is my favorite shirt at the moment, have been wearing it almost every day since I got it.
