I moved! Living room and life situation

So.. life happened and I moved. By myself. Just me (and my 3 cats, rip Minni). Oh my Goddess, this is still so weird. It has been a month and I feel super weird still. I have never been just by myself, it is a big learning curve. When I moved I realized how much  stuff I actually own. Somehow almost everything has fitted here. I got a fleamarket table for 2 weeks (to get started) and I am gonna get rid of a lot of stuff, phew. 

First I slept with the air mattress that I got from my friend.. but it got broken so I got second hand mattress. I am sorry for the quality of the pictures, I took them with my phone when it was dark (mostly) because I forgot to vlog and take pictures when it was bright outside.

I would really love to be a minimalism person, but I think I can´t never achieve that. Little part of me still hopes that it can happen but oh well.. maybe you should never say never. Like the marriage I had. I thought we would never break up. Things happen. It´s still rough, I keep myself busy and try not to think about it. But real world is still there. Trying to figure out who I am and what I want in life is super big thing for me. I want to achieve a lot this year. New changes are still coming. First of all I want to be single the whole year. Let´s see how that will go. I have never been single longer than few months.

I have this image in my head how I want my life to be now and in the future. I feel that I am changing. My apartment look is even gonna change. You can see everything is basically black right. Well, in the future everything is going to be full of color. Gosh, I love my idea of bohemian, colorful, different kind of home.. which is still me. Just different side of me. You guys are gonna see so much decoration stuff in my blog.

Awesome wallcloth is second hand (got it from Milla).

Pink time! I chose pink to be the first color in the new home. I am super happy about the results I had with the paint.

And here is the situation today. A lot of stuff is already find their place and This is starting to look like a home. You can also see a little kitchen project, the chair is gonna be the same pink as the table. I really wish I will find a new tv soon. If you have one that you want to get rid of, let me know.

I also made a new look for a foot stool that is also second hand. I just love the fabric. I found it on Eurokangas, it costed me 11 euros and I still have left overs, don´t know what to do with them tho. Ideas? Pillows, tablecloth, or what?

But yeah, back in business with the blog, I have a lot of new stuff for you guys, can´t wait!
Leena

28 days witchy challenge! Day 1- Meet the Witch

Here is some challenge for you to do with me! I will post about my own progress while I am doing it. Find yourself as a witch!

DAY 1 - Take time out of your day to think about, write about, or draw what your witchy self looks like. What they are into. Their favorite witchy activity. Any details you can possibly think of.

This took me 2 hours to make but it was really fun! I think I am gonna do this for my witchy type posts or something too. But basically I just love everything witchy related and the aesthetic. If you start to do this challenge, let me know so I can see what things you do trough this challenge!

DAY 2 - Take the day to meditate. It can be about anything or nothing at all. Let your mind wonder and do it’s thing. Journal about it and let things come to you.

DAY 3 - BUY SOMETHING WITCHY! This challenge is all about self-care for you and your witchy self, so it can be as simple as spending a dollar at the dollar store or buying something elaborate online. If there is no way you can buy something, try to find something. For example, go to the woods/Park and try to find a mushroom for an offering.

DAY 4 - Piggy backing off of day 3, MAKE SOMETHING JUST FOR YOU AND YOUR CRAFT. Like all of these days, it can be something big or small. You can make a set of runes or maybe make yourself a picture for your alter. Just make it for YOU!

DAY 5 - Watch or listen to something witchy. Charmed, Practical Magic, listen to some witchy music, anything!

 DAY 6 - Spend some time in nature! Whether it is sitting on your lawn or taking a hike, or even a walk through the park, just take time to appreciate nature and Mother Earth and all she had given us.

DAY 7 - Let an entire candle burn. I know this may sounds silly to some of you, but I am the type of person that struggles with this (unless doing a specific spell). So, just sit with your candle and watch it burn. Feel free to multitask while doing this. Just try to focus on it now and again. It can be a birthday candle or a very large candle, whatever works for you.

DAY 8 - Make a special cup of tea. If you’re not a tea drinker, try a different kind or hot coco or coffee. When making, focus in your intent. When drinking, focus on all the different flavors you taste and sensations you feel.

DAY 9 - Journal about the elements and what they mean to you.

DAY 10 - Make a list of new worst things you can try. It can be anything like talking more walks or a new spell!

 DAY 11 - Journal about your deities/higher power. What they mean to you. If you don’t have any, then try to journal about the energies around you. What you feel and the power.

 DAY 12 - Piggy backing off of day 12, write down/find a new way you can honor your deities or energies that you journaled about. And if it’s possible, do it! It can be anything from a leaf you found to an elaborate meal. It can be simply praying.

DAY 13 - BATH OR SHOWER MAGIC! This is pretty self-explanatory, but try to just take some time and take a magical bath or shower. It doesn’t have to be elaborate, or it can! Try to just focus your intent and maybe try a shower or bath meditation. There are a ton of different things here on Tumblr, so get creative!

DAY 14 - Spell Jar!! There are a TON of spell jars on Tumblr and all over the internet. You can use those or make your own! They are very easy and great if you’re low on spoons!

DAY 15 - Cook! If you aren’t able to cook due to physical reasons, or even lack of time, then try to eat something special. Regardless, cook or at least eat something that inspires you or harnesses your intent.

DAY 16 - PRAYER! This is pretty self-explanatory, but try to honor and show your intent. Ask even, for guidance, hope, strength, whatever!

DAY 17 - Sky watching! You can watch the Moon and stars or just the clouds go by.

DAY 18 - Journal about what magick means to you. Go into as much detail as possible.

DAY 19 - SIGILS! Make your own sigil! Focus your intent and be creative! If there is no way you can come up with your own, then feel free to use one from the internet.

DAY 20 - Alter time!!! Try to redecorate your alter! If you are in the broom closet, then maybe draw one!

DAY 21 - Journal about ways you can, from now on, nurture yourself. Whether it’s teas, baths, putting on makeup, whatever! Make lists or just woke about the things you want to do!

DAY 22 - Worry Stone! You can find one or make one or but one, it’s totally up to you! Which brings us toooooooooooo……

DAY 23 - Cleanse and charge your items!! There are umpteen different ways you can cleanse and charge your items, just pick one! Please make sure that however you cleanse and charge your items, it is safe for them.

DAY 24 - PLANTS! Take care of your plants, harvest a plant, buy a plant, even take some time to talk with your plants!

DAY 25 - SCAVENGER HUNT! No, not literally. But, go find something that nature has given you. A mushroom, a leaf, anything! Place it on your alter and honor it! By honoring it, you honor Mother Nature and all that she has created. Including you!

DAY 26 - Do a glamour!! This can be anything from enchanting your chapstick to make you feel loved or carrying a self-love charm bag. Get creative with it! Try to make your intent focus on love from yourself or self-confidence!

DAY 27 -MAKE YOUR OWN SPELL! Literally, just have fun with this. Use your alter, use your journal entries and the internet and books! Get creative! Focus your intent and be specific! It can be low spoons or high spoons. Whatever works for you!

DAY 28 - MEDITATE! Meditate about the past 28 days and all the work you’ve done! Think and focus on your craft and all the self-care you have worked for!

Life update (let´s do our best)

Dear darklings,

my rehabilitation ended this week. I had my last check visit in Verve and I am totally ready for working world. That seems so weird. We talked about how much I have changed. When I started at Verve (place where they help you find your career path if you have physical or mental problems) I went there and cried every damn day. I needed a lot of help even with my cv. And now, I am at school and learning how to start my own business. I am making my own plans, by myself and that is something that feels truly great. 2 weeks has already passed, 4 to go. I am learning so much, I have so much inspiration and my plans has sharpened. 

I still have a lot of time before the company is really coming true, because of many things (that´s life), so I have been thinking what to do while waiting my dream to come true. I want to use my time carefully. Doing maybe something that helps me with my goal. I have been thinking about doing more school. Maybe marketing, because that I really love to do already, that would help with the company too. Or maybe freelance photographing. Maybe I fully focus on my photography project and book and do that. Maybe I put FAM on totally next level. Many options. I am glad that I am in that point in my life that I have many passions that I love and I can work with. I am also blessed with friends and a partner that wants to help and support me. I can do anything that I want.

Because all of that, I have been very inspired to help my friends to find passion and goals in life too. I have helped couple of my friends already and that feels great. Somehow supporting and trying to figure out what might be the path for my friends inspire me in my own life too. I feel great. If any of you have that same problem (it seems to be more common than I thought), let me know, let´s figure out something together! Only sky is the limit (unless you want to be a pilot or something) if you really dream about something. And it doesn´t need to be anything big. It could even be a hobby that you enjoy that brings value in your life. That makes you happy and balance the stressing work life. Or maybe you don´t work and don´t have hobbies and feel like you don´t have anything special in your life. I suggest you try things that even little makes you feel worth trying for. Maybe you will be good at it, or maybe you don´t. At least you tried, figured you don´t like it, or maybe you do like it and enjoy doing it. It doesn´t matter how good you are doing something, if it is the thing that feels well.. being your thing. So dear darkling, just try and learn and enjoy life.

Even my hair has a story. Well, mostly it´s orange/yellow because of the autumn and my love for it. But it also represent my inspiration and bubbly feeling for the future, and even how I feel today. All the excitement, all the inspiration, all the happiness. I feel bright and and very pleased. That is so rare to me that I want to fully enjoy this. And I want to show it and share it with others.  I have gone such a rough path, lots of pain, lots of tears, lots of fear and letdowns. Still, I want to always be positive, reach my dreams, be the best friend I can be and inspire others. I want to be the person that I admire myself. Because you are the most important person in your life. You are the one that make the changes, you are the one that make the decisions, your are the one that is your own best friend. You need to enjoy your own company, love yourself and just be proudly, you. No one else can do that for you. They can help and support, but you are the one living YOUR life. You deserve the best. And by best I mean the quality, the value and being safe. And by that I mean little things in life that makes your whole life. Meaningful moments turns to memories you cherish your whole life. Happy and hard moments change you, you learn, it will shape you to be the person who you are today. It´s okey to feel sad, angry and all those that we seems to see negative. But remember to do shadow work. Accept your feelings, work with them and learn about yourself. 

So, the conclusion for my rant this time, go for it, be you, do your thing. If you are scared, let me say, so am I. Don´t let the fear be in your way. You can´t be brave unless you are afraid (like it´s said in Lion King). And also, take care for yourself. It seems to be a thing that seem so easy and simple but we tend to forget that. I started to do some exercise again, I smoke a lot less and eat a lot healthier. I feel way better. Because of that I need less sleep than I normally do (I sleep like 9-12 hours per day). 

Today I am doing some photoshop editing, some school stuff and maybe doing some shadow work with a friend that truly needs it. I hope it helps and make things seem more clear (to me and my friend). Myself, hmm.. I have some anger issues. I don´t deal with my anger, I hide it under bitterness. And that´s not good. So I need to work with that. I can´t wait to see what else hides in the shadows of my mind.

Things I love at the moment:

• ♥ Music: Electro Swing/ Lindsey Stirling Artemis album
• ♥ Witch fashion
• ♥ Orange and yellow
• ♥ School
• ♥ Autumn Aesthetic
• ♥ Tv- series: Terrace House / Fairy Tail
• ♥ Inspiring others

Blessed be,

shine bright my loves!