I have had such an amazing summer. In the good and the bad. Feelings had gone trough the roof and straight to the ground, gosh, life really can surprise you right? June went really fast, basically I had been all over Finland to see my friends and being happy about the sunny days. Exercising, walking a lot, using clothing that make me feel happier. Oh, and June was pink month. Some reason my try to get light purple back fired and my hair wanted to be pink, too much red in the coloring process I think. Oh well, I still loved it. I felt like a little llamaunicorn haha. Ignore the bad quality of my pictures, I normally carry only my cellphone because I always forgot to take my little blogging camera with me, damn it. I try to be better blogger on the future.
About this month more later on... now I try to remember what happened last month. My head is so weird, when bad things happened, my mind wants to forget things and now I can´t even remember all the good things well, god damn it. Well, anywho, I don´t know what to do without my friends, you are the rock beneath my feet.
How fast this year goes! Every morning when I wake up I realize, other day just passed (I never think that when I go to sleep). My summer started with good company, Isa and Kari came to town, we took few pictures for Lumissa´s jewelry, drank very good wine and had a blast. I wanted to be Wednesday, it was kinda weird to dress up to take pictures, but Kari is so good photographer that I wanted few pictures for myself too.
Couple of weeks ago I went to Helsinki to do Alternative bloggers meeting, see my friends and took some pictures for FAM. Vivica started to do my new leg tattoo, it will be so rad! Tricky trips, here I come again!
I have been swollen by a big depression which seem to be bigger than the ocean at the moment. I don´t even remember the last time I felt like this. Nothing seems not to interest me anymore. I do stuff because I still want to keep moving and try to live normally as possible. Weeks and weeks only crying and selfhate, I am starting to hate this part of my illness. Normally I am full of energy and keep going until I am too tired to do stuff and be exited. I have so many things to do and now I feel I am going be even more behind my schedule. Sigh...
Last months I have been busy with my photographing stuff, there is coming some good stuff, all tough I don´t have the power for photoshopping... how irritating. Would you like me to blog more about my photographing pictures on my other blog or here? I have multiple videoideas too but don´t have strength for that either, gosh... And even today is awesome video shooting day, typical. So this became some complain post, oh well haha.
Few things keep me smiling though. I am so in love with Jani again that I didn´t know this kind of love is in the world. I don´t know what I would do without his support. And because my growing self confidence, my closet is becoming more and more like me. My daily clothes and jewelry are those kind of things that you just need to have. I used my Evil cunt hat all winter, it reminds me that even I am not that kind at times. And it has pentagram on it, font is kinda cool too. Cat shirt will be one the most used too, it is so warm and cumfy. Crazy catlady for ever!
Now it is time for my latest addiction, Star Wars comics! Have you seen the newest trailer btw? I got so exited about it that I wanted to do Star Wars marathon yesterday with Jani and now I am reading all the things that happen after the 6th movie.
